What do I want to accomplish?

My biggest goal is to lose about 20 lbs. I currently am at 157, but I would be happy at 140. Although my ultimate goal is to lose weight, I have other goals that I'm going to try to accomplish. And hopefully during the process lose the pounds too. Here are a list of my goals:

1. Get more active Monday thru Friday.
I already have a pedometer for work, and I usually get plenty of steps in on Saturday and Sunday at work. My goal is to get at least 7,000 steps a day, and at least three days a week over 10,000 steps.

2. Make it to the gym more often.
We have a membership, and Ella is at preschool twice a week. So my goal is to go at least twice a week while she is at preschool.

3. Work out at least four times a week.
If I make it to the gym twice, then that leaves two more workouts to get in. I am leaving some flexibility, due to my fibromyalgia and lupus. I can run around the neighborhood, do a video at home (Lord knows we have enough of them), or a quick crossfit workout.

4. Eat better and healthier, and drink more water.
I am not good with meal plans, especially extreme diets. I just want to reduce fast food, and choose healthier when we do eat out. I am going to try to incorporate healthier foods and snacks, cut out sodas, and not eat as much candy and sweets. I have a calorie counter app that seems pretty easy to use, and I plan on using it more to educate and gain more insight into what I'm eating, not really to restrict calories.

5. Keep track of my progress, and not give up.
I think I've failed at diets in the past because I haven't tracked my progress and goals. So I hope to post at least on once a week, maybe Fridays, and take pics at least every two weeks.

To come: How I'm going to do it!

How did I get here?

As of today, I am starting this blog as an online journal for myself. I guess I feel like i need another tool to keep me dedicated, and maybe posting will. I'm not advertising this blog to anyone currently, but maybe as I go on I will be happy to share with others (however, I'm not hiding or making it private, yet).

So how did I get here?
I am calling this blog "my big fat fertility fail", first because we have tried for three years this January to get pregnant. We have tried the old fashioned way, timing, ovulation predictors, then oral meds, then oral meds plus injection plus IUIs, then full-on injections and IUIs. When I added up an estimate of what we have spent, it's close to ten grand or more. And what do I have to show for it? 20+ lbs of a no-baby bump.

I wouldn't blame all the weight on fertility treatments, but for these reasons:
1. The medications made me hungry and have lots of cravings.
2. Each month I was so confident that I would be pregnant, I ate while I could considering how much I threw up with my first pregnancy.
3. I never really stuck with any fitness routines or started any training because I didn't want to be interrupted by pregnancy.

There are other reasons, but those are the main ones. So for now, I'm taking a break from fertility treatments and focusing on me. We haven't really decided if we want to try in intro or just go straight to trying to adopt. Either way, I need a mental and physical break from trying, and I'm spending this time trying to get back in shape in both areas.

To come in the next blog posts:
What do I want to accomplish?
And how am I going to do it.